batskeets: (yan!)
Woohoo!

No, seriously, I'm feeling better than I have in a while. (amazingly, no, I don't have my fancy B-Complex supplements yet) It seems as though, every time I sit down to write something, I get pulled away by something else. So, before that happens again, bullet points:
  • I had a truly kick-in-the-pants fun time on Sunday, at a special Fresh Meat vs. Corvallis scrimmage. We had team skaters to be our actual jam coach and bench coach, even. They seemed to be giving me the pivot hat a lot, which I figure is probably a sign that they've noticed my improving awareness and communication skillz. I'll take that as a compliment. I felt like my defensive blocking was decently effective, I made some solid offensive blocking moves, and I definitely had some ah-ha moments in the pack where things in my brain clicked in new ways. I'm definitely holding onto that as best I can. I also have some stellar bruises in some highly unusual places. Job well done!
  • I have about a billion shoots happening next week. Two evenings of jewelry shooting, and a fashion shoot that'll turn into party photos afterwards. I'd like to plan something more fun-and-experimental soon, but it's a toss-up as to when that'll happen. Still, it's good to be working.
  • Through a bizarre twist of fate, one of the two weddings I'm shooting this year will be my ex-boyfriend's (Alpha's) wedding, in about of month or so. I had a meetup with him and his special lady last week to talk details, and it sounds like a modest, laid-back, and fun affair. And, there'll apparently be bellydancing at the reception, heh. She seems like a cool lady, too, so I'm glad that my actually-sane-and-nice-ex is ending up with somebody worthy.
  • I'm feeling disconnected from a lot of people, lately. I don't like that. I'm hoping to have some bandwidth to do something about it this month. And more energy to do something about it in the longer term, once my fancy vitamins come in.
And, in conclusion: my pixel art, let me show you it. This will soon be turned into a flyer for the Portland Retro Gaming Expo. 8-Bit-Style art takes, um, a long time, but cash money for fun and challenging work? Yes please.

art_r3
batskeets: (yan!)
Heh, so yesterday wasn't entirely dissimilar to how it was a year prior. On that day in 2010, I went on my first date with Joe, which involved doing karaoke with some folks while wearing a fairly hideous Christmas-themed sweater. Last night, we ended it doing the same thing, albeit at a different place.

What's adorable is that last night Joe signed up to sing Amish Paradise, and then got me up there to team-sing it with him, which he'd also done on our first date. He told me on our way home from the Ugly Sweater Party last night that he'd remembered team-singing that song, and he also remembered what song was being caterwauled off-key in the background during our first kiss ("I Ran"), and that he actually sort-of-likes A Flock of Seagulls now because of that.

Last night was different (and better), though, because we also got to hang out and have good laughs with dear friends of mine, and dear friends of his, over the course of the evening. It's affirming and generally awesome that we mesh with each others' friend groups so well. And, at the end of the night, we fell asleep together, feeling lucky to have had each other in our lives for the past year, and enthusiastic about the year to come.

So, yeah, it's been a pretty good year. We're fortunate to have found each other, and to have such fantastic people around us.
Well, Saturday decided to follow suit with the rest of last week, and proved to be, uh, eventful. Fortunately, it wasn't as incredibly exhausting and/or demoralizing as Monday thru Thursday were, heh.
  • Rolled out of bed at 9:15 to get ready for a coffee date. Damned near fell asleep again, after being out late on Friday night, but I got up and out the door, on track for being about 10 minutes late to said coffee date. While on the highway, my car started sounding odd, so I got off at my exit and pulled over, to discover that my tire had completely blown out! I called and left a voicemail for the dude, saying, "you're not going to believe this, but my tire just blew the hell out on the highway," and apologizing and such.
  • Dude called me right back, and started off saying, "I am *really* sorry I'm such a flake and am not there yet!" Apparently, he'd gotten up early to get ready, and wound up falling back asleep later, heh. After I told him about the tire, he offered help, so he came out and changed my tire. AND he also handily jumped my car, because I was an idiot and left the headlights on while we were dealing with the tire. After all that, we had 15 whole minutes for me to buy us both coffee, before I had to take off for my wushu demo. Said coffee was a macchiato at this little shop he'd suggested in NE, and it may have been the best coffee I've ever had. Holy damn.
  • The wushu demo itself was fine. We didn't find out that we'd even be doing a demo until 2 weeks prior, so with the Thanksgiving holiday, we'd had almost no practice time, but we pulled it off. It was also nice that we actually got to perform on the wushu carpet this time, because slippery gym floors? Not so good for traction.
  • After demo, there was just enough time to make a deposit at the bank, and dash off to derby practice. It was a shorter practice than usual, but I did my skills checklist, and I'd already passed the rules test a couple weeks ago, through some miracle of divine providence. SO, that means I'm officially cleared as Scrimmage-Ready. Doing the skills checklist really helped drive home the point of how much I've improved since I started, so even though it's an early, *early* step on the road to derby awesome, it still felt like a victory. :)
  • After practice, it was run home, shower, grab food, and go to the derby bout! It was a double-header, and My Hero Napoleon was in the second of the two bouts, so I got to sit with [livejournal.com profile] marykae and a few other girls from Wreckers, and scream my head off, and it was awesome. Once that was over, I came home, loafed around the house, and passed out.

Sunday was much, much more chill. I met up with Kenna to talk webstuff, and then worked on web things that I was actually (gasp!) excited about working on. It's so good to be doing design again, even on a small scale.

AND, [livejournal.com profile] katlyn , [livejournal.com profile] daemonwise , and I sat down and finally finished watching the 3rd and final season of Avatar. I LOVE THIS DAMNED SHOW. A couple of minor issues with the ending, yes, but still, so completely worth it. I think I'm preaching its gospel almost as hard as Veronica Mars (or possibly more?), at this point. And I may have to find some excuse in the future to dress up as Avatar Kyoshi, heh. (P.S. [livejournal.com profile] phasmaphobic : I still don't see the resemblance, but eh, I never do. ;) But costuming as an Earth bender? Uh, YES PLEASE.)

Anyhoo, now it's Monday, and so far, it's proving to be a far better one than the last. Decisions reaffirmed, design work being well-received, and the day is flying by. Hell yes. And there's Farscape viewing tonight!
I don't have to push so hard.

At some point yesterday, when I was sitting at a hockey game, wondering if I was the third wheel in the scenario--and yes, clearly, that was not my expectation--something in me gave up.

Then, after I got home, I looked back on the situation, and something in me started to laugh. It's all just very, very silly.

This song and dance is one part foolishness, two parts heart, and one part utter confusion, and I don't think I feel like taking another trip across the stage. Maybe at some later date, if I see sign that there's something waiting in the wings other than a keen dagger waiting to be plunged into my soft underbelly, I'll trip the light fantastic across those boards. But for now? Fuck it. Whatever happens, even if "whatever" turns out to be nothing.

To give up on the constructs, the formalities, the fakery, the wangst, and grab hold of something real. That's all I want, in the end.

Thing is, I had upwards of 15 people in my home on Thanksgiving, faces that I love. I have goals that are finally taking shape, and starting to yield real results. I have amazing people to share in the work I love. When I have an exhausting and disappointing day, I can end it with a beer and a shoulder to cry on, or at least a listening ear to rant at. An idle wandering down to my kitchen can result in an impromptu 15-second dance party, and a flare of anxiety is met with comforting hands on my shoulders, and offers of assistance.

I've had some very real things, staring me in the face, waiting to be taken for my own. Why hasn't that been enough?

Maybe it should be. Maybe it's time to give up on the chase, and start grabbing onto the things that I'm ready for. The things that are ready for me.

I don't have to push so hard.

(I swear, one of these days, I should have that tattooed across my forehead.)
Yes, in spite of everyone and their mother's attempt to derail me with Things I Have To Do yesterday, I successfully found time to make friends with the ol' XBox again. I'm finally out of freakin' Lothering! Yes, I'm the slowest gamer on the planet. Morrigan disapproves. But, I intend to have more free evenings at my disposal in the near future, so I *will* get through this freakin' game. I have others I need to play!

Also, I don't think I've mentioned it here, but should you want to be friends on XBox Live, leave me your screen name, and I'll add you! (probably better that way, given my sporadic console gaming endeavors)

I also had a sort-of-date via Skype, earlier this evening. It was stunningly awkward for the first couple of minutes, just by virtue of the fact that it was on Skype, and you can thusly see each other, but not completely. My wild gesticulations went outside of the webcam's view more than once, and we had a couple instances of one of us pointing at something in the background, and then realizing that the other couldn't see what was being pointed at.

Other than that, however, I wound up having a great time, and I didn't want it to end, when it came time for me to log off and leave for the evening's activities. And just, wow. I had what was, more or less, an extended, face-to-face interaction with a person in another city. Realizing that blows my mind a little.

It's official: I live in the gorram future, people. And I think I may be spending a fair bit more time on Skype in the coming weeks.
batskeets: (yan!)
So, I kind of forgot to post anything yesterday, because I was working. And actually enjoying it. Hoshit. When was the last time that happened? I'm not sure, but I like it, and I definitely hope it becomes a trend.

Mostly-Awesome Things Of Recent, in chronological order:
  • Murder Mystery birthday party for [livejournal.com profile] herince_emyn was good fun, and she and [livejournal.com profile] matrixleap had an awesome dinner spread ready for all of us! Lots of good eating and good laughs.
  • Derby class is getting better. I think I hurt my hip flexor a bit sometime mid-last week, so snowplows hurt like a mother, but I'm definitely sucking less at stopping. Still not great at it, but improving.
  • Wedding on Saturday went fine. Portraits were chaotic, as they often are, but everything else was fine, and having [livejournal.com profile] katlyn there helping me out improved my state of mind immensely. Also: staying in on a Saturday night?! Shut yo' mouf! (seriously, though, it was exactly what the doctor ordered)
  • Veronica Mars Breakfast Land, heh. [livejournal.com profile] marykae fed us well, and Sunday's viewing had some of the best episodes of Season 2. And that's saying something, because they're all awesome. Only bummer was that I got sad for a while, after saying goodbye to Andrew before he headed back towards Wisconsin.
  • Fortunately, I was cheered up quickly when I met up with Kenna for Trek in the Park! I am so, so glad I caught this last performance, because it was thoroughly enjoyable. And I cannot even *begin* to express how excited I am that they're tackling the Mirror Universe for next summer's performances!
  • I was invited to a group dinner afterwards, by a Dude From The Internets. Dude may be lacking the necessary cojones to actually date me, b/c he didn't seem to try very hard to engage me, but he did have his hands full with hosting. He was considerate and cooked an excellent meal, at least.
  • I also received an offer from a fine, Not-From-The-Internets gentleman I met recently, who wants to take me to the zoo and dinner this weekend, and he is definitely not short on cojones. In fact, he is bringing the directness and honesty in the most excellent way possible.
  • And finally? Partnership is AWESOME. After various dramas and difficulties in the past, I had almost forgotten, but when you put the right sorts of people together, amazing things can happen. I really need to write more about this soon, but DUDE. Excitement!
And, it's Tuesday. ALL DAY. Jeebus. Back to work!
This was a very good weekend.

The rooftop of the Hotel Deluxe was the venue for my post-wushu Friday night, and I got to dress pretty, hang with my band of Laptop Party girls, drink fancy champagne cocktails, and pose for photobooth shots in silly fashion.

I also got to hang with [livejournal.com profile] _dilate_ & Co. at Amnesia Brewing afterwards, where I was hideously overdressed, but having a good time nonetheless. I like NoPo so much.

I consumed a metric ton of pork on Saturday, courtesy of [livejournal.com profile] daemonwise's pet project, Rib-Off 2: Electric BBQ. Holy damn, there were some seriously delicious ribs to be had, and when it came time to vote for the winner, I was in serious conflict over my decision. They were *all* friggin' amazing, and each in a very distinct sort of way. My hat is off to each and every one of you who cooked. Seriously, DAMN.

Post-Rib-Off, I found myself at Horse Brass, having a date that (gasp!) ACTUALLY DIDN'T SUCK. When I arrived there, I was sweaty and gross from biking, vaguely pork-drunk (™ [livejournal.com profile] praenomenal), and not exactly in a good headspace for impressing new people, so I figured it'd be Meh, at best, but it far exceeded my expectations. This was the first one in quite a while that actually has me excited about going on a second date, and he actually said he wanted to hang out again, "if that's okay with [me]," (d'aawww!) so it's a fair assumption that a second date will happen.

There was also a friend whom I'd been fearing I might be on the outs with, but my fears were apparently inaccurate, because I heard from him and we wound up hanging out during the weekend, too. And that turned out fun, overall, so that was a pretty huge relief.

This will probably make at least a few of you laugh, but: I also watched Sailormoon for the first time in at least FIVE YEARS. It wasn't until I was sitting down with [livejournal.com profile] typsie, Jason, and [livejournal.com profile] praenomenal that I realized I'd watched most, if not ALL of my Sailormoon episodes either alone in my college dorm room, or alone in my Dad's old apartment in Connecticut at the age of 15. But oh, MAN, they're as cheesy and hysterical as I remembered. The R Movie is so overwhelmingly gay that I can't help but still love it. XD

And, finally, I had a really nice time working with one of my new senior reps, too. She's a Vancouver-ite, so she had a fair bit of difficulty finding Overlook Park, but once she got there, we had a smooth session. I found myself wishing a few times that I'd made arrangements to have an assistant, because manning the reflector myself got a bit hinky once or twice, but I got some rad shots, nonetheless. She's in summer school, too, so she's ready to start throwing my business card at all of her friends right away. W00t!
I'm not sure what it is, but friends-of-friends seem to be finding me via Facebook and asking me out with a greater and greater frequency, as of late. I'm not sure why they're approaching me, because most of them seem to have very few, if any, of the fundamental things in common with me. But one, in particular, is becoming quite the source of amusement for me and the couple other friends of mine whose profiles led this person to me.

This dude apparently found me through a friend's event invitation, and messaged me to ask about hanging out. We did seem to have a few things in common, and he must've caught me in an exceptionally good mood, because I foolishly said I might be open to that sometime. After getting the inside scoop from our mutual friends, however, it sounded like he was more of a casual hookup kind of dude, which isn't my type at all, so I was less interested, after that. And, well, he hasn't exactly been helping his case.

He's been inviting me to various things every week or so since, and on several occasions, even after he's invited me to something and I've told him I'm busy, he'll re-invite me *again* on the day-of. For some reason, that really hits my pet peeve nerve, and having to re-iterate that, hey, I said I already had plans, gets spectacularly annoying. I'm a busy person, and I like to take things at my own pace, and being bothered by virtual strangers tries my patience pretty badly, sometimes.

But, the amusing part is, after a few iterations of this, where does he decide to invite me next? HOT TUBBING. The first invite was for the soaking pool at the Kennedy School, which is at least a neutral location, but the second invite was for hot-tubbing at his place, with a few friends of his.

Of course, neither one sounded like a good time to me, because, call me crazy, but hot-tubbing as a first-meetup? Even if a few other people are present, that just sounds REALLY. AWKWARD.

I've since told him as much, and hopefully, that'll be enough to get him off my case. Because now I basically have no desire to meet this person, uh, ever.

And that is the story of Hot Tub Guy.
And here's why!

This whole "Ice Breakers" thing, where they essentially recommend that you write to a person, knowing nothing about them other than the fact that they like something you happen to like. While I understand the importance of common interests, there are plenty of obnoxious people in the world who happen to enjoy one thing that I also enjoy.

People who comment about how cute I am in pictures, and who obviously didn't read my profile? If I wanted to be objectified, I could just go to a bar. At least then, I'd have a beer in my hand.

One aspiring suitor described me as an "X-Men conocer." I sincerely hope that is an obscure English word that I haven't yet learned, because if that's supposed to be "connoisseur," I may just have to punch something.

And speaking of word abuse, Anxious and Eager? NOT INTERCHANGEABLE.

On the flip side of the word abuse angle, there are the dudes who try *too* hard to sound smart. Overusing pretentiously-long words isn't quite as irritating as using more conventional words incorrectly... but it's close.

Dear Unattractive OKStalker: "i want to marry you" is not an effective conversation starter. THANKS.

Another dude wrote to me... for the sole purpose of asking me if I'm looking to do freelance web development work. Because I'm *obviously* on OKCupid for the purpose of getting jobs. Riiiight.

And finally, Paul Atreides is apparently hiding out in Portland and looking for love. Well, at least that one's more funny than it is irritating.
Because there probably are, or will soon be, questions, I will answer them: Yes. No. Eventually. Possibly. Not Effin' Likely.

...

Oh, fine, I guess you might want the questions, too.

1) Are you dating?
2) Do you have a new boyfriend?
3) Are you looking for a new boyfriend?
4) Do I know any of the people you're dating?
5) Are you going to spew forth the gory details of your exploits onto the Internet At Large?

And yes, the Ex-boyfriend has been notified, he took the news quite well, and completely reasonable boundaries have been established for the time being. Apparently, this is one of the conveniences of having a mutual and largely drama-free breakup. Who knew?

So, yeah, there you go.

In conclusion, dating is exciting. And agonizing. And generally weird. The End. <3

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