Guh.

[batskeets]

I'm really learning to hate wedding season. It's great that we're busy, but I spend the summer months working my ass off and being tired and crabby all the time, and there's no real way around it. If I were doing less at The Job, it'd be okay, but that's not in the cards right now, so I keep squeezing out that extra dose of whatever to get me through the weeks.

And, my personal relationships pretty much go to crap. Although B and I are partners-in-crime and do a lot of the wedding work together, it's still work, and it's tiring and tension-inducing. And we're so worn out when it's all over that we don't have the energy to actually, you know, have fun together. I know *I* don't have any.

AND, if it wasn't for having a few great friend-types living in my house, I probably wouldn't see any friends at all. I get the occasional invite, sure, but most of the time I'm too tired to even lazily show up at a gathering, much less plan something fun where I might invite other people. And if I do take myself out there, I'm generally a zoned-out waste of social space.

Maybe it just seems extraordinarily crappy right now because we're moving, on top of everything else. Between my working and and my having a sprained foot, B is having to do a lot of the heavy lifting, and it's making him noticeably cranky. Which makes me crankier, and that makes him crankier, and woooo, infinite feedback loop. :p

So, yeah, I basically want all this crap to be overwith, because I've been a lonely, listless, and largely unpleasant bitchmonster this whole time, and I don't want to get stuck like this.

It'd be nice if I could actually start feeling normal again.

Comments

[helloandie.livejournal.com]

Which makes me crankier, and that makes him crankier, and woooo, infinite feedback loop. :p

hah! only a true geek would make that correlation. that made me LOLZ right at my desk.

now i'm getting strange looks. totally worth it.

[lillilah]

Err, why not take fewer wedding jobs? Are you really so broke that you can't get by without them? Or raise your prices so that fewer people ask you. Yes, it is important to build a portfolio, a client base, etc, but if life and your relationships suck because of it then you are going in the wrong direction. At least that is my 2¢.

[skeets.livejournal.com]

It's not a matter of being broke; The Job takes care of that. But it seems like a temporary, necessary evil, because if I ever want to scale things back at The Job, then the business does need to take on the wedding jobs.

I think the thing that's really tipping the scales into nastiness is moving house, though. I already hate moving, because it's a pain in the ass no matter what. But now, instead of relaxing and staying sane after I get done at The Job or at a wedding, it's, "oh, I'd better drag myself out to haul some more boxes."

The insanity that is moving

[nidaba.livejournal.com]

Unpacking is a big pain in the butt.

To keep my sanity, I make sure there is at least one room in the house that is clean and lacks boxes which torment me. When I finish working for the day I go and hide in that room for an hour or so.

Luckily, moving is temporary. Some day ALL of those freakin' boxes will be gone. When that happens we'll have a party :-)

moving

[gmendel.livejournal.com]

Stop letting B kill himself in the move. Put up an ad on craigslist. "Moving, need help lifting boxes. $20/hr, guaranteed at least 1 hour of work. Will need you in (general location) on (day) at (time). Email me with your phone number and I'll contact you."

Hire 2 or 3 people and watch the whole thing fly by. The one time we were able to coordinate this the truck was loaded in 45 minutes in one city and unloaded just as fast in the next.

College students needing beer money will love you.

You can contribute by stationing yourself by the moving truck or in the house too keep your lackeys honest.