Activities for the bored

[batskeets]

If you're bored, take a look at some proofs from a shoot I did in November. (as in, all the ones in the navy blue wushu outfit with the screen behind me) If you're *really* bored, pick 5 favorites!

Bear in mind that these are unedited proofs, so you'd be picking based on how scary/pretty/whatever I look in them, and shot composition. Any technical problems would be corrected, and they might be converted to black-and-white anyway. (the artist tends to work in black-and-white) There are tons more, but I'm having trouble paring it down any further than what's online.

The sword-in-hand one is kind of a given, because it is awesome and totally sums up the entire shoot.

Also, POLL: for the ladies in the audience, what are some thoughts that come to your mind, when dealing with the issue of size? (yes, as in weight) How has it affected you in the past, how does it make you feel now, etc.

I ask, because the photographer who did the wushu stuff discussed size with me this past weekend. (I'd mentioned last time I was up that I'd previously been really overweight) He says that's one issue he hasn't really taken on in his work, so we're thinking about ways to tackle it through photography. I certainly have a lot of thoughts about it, but they're all from my own experiences and perspectives, so I'd like to hear some other thoughts. :)

Comments

[rockinghalo.livejournal.com]

fun pictures!

I also dig your WoW icon. A co-worker of mine is a guild leader and I've heard about the new stuff non-stop!

[aniline.livejournal.com]

I like DSC_0277.jpg and all of the ones where you have a sword. :D

[divadrummer.livejournal.com]

I did a blog on that awhile back... If this turns into a project, I'm comfortable enough to participate :)

Oh ya, 0323, 0279, 0276, 0301.

[lillilah]

Weight is an issue for me if I can't comfortably dress in my favorite clothes. At the moment, I'm making progress on the weight front, so it doesn't bother me hugely. I don't need to be a pixie, though.

[alaindan.livejournal.com]

Pictures = Yum!

[nidaba.livejournal.com]

When I first started high school I remember being teased about my weight (or lack there-of). Nicknames like "no butt" and "surf board" were usually the taunt of choice. I can laugh now, but as a fourteen year old trying to fit in at a new school those names made me feel like a freak.

My mom use to say that the "girls" who said these things were just jealous, but all I ever wanted was for them to just leave me alone. Her argument also didn't make sense since boys would teased me as well.

I even "tried" to go on a diet. Of course, my attempts to gain weight failed miserably and I quit only after 2 weeks.

Wow, HS was a miserable time in my life. Why are teenagers so cruel?
Anyway, that is my story. Sorry if I rambled a bit :-P

[sarapada.livejournal.com]

what are some thoughts that come to your mind, when dealing with the issue of size? (yes, as in weight) How has it affected you in the past, how does it make you feel now, etc.

I could literally write paragraphs upon paragraphs about this - I'll try to keep it down. But if there's anything you want me to expand upon.let me know.

I started feeling overweight when I was elementary school - I was called fat as I stood in front of my third-grade class. And I was overweight throughout my life. For me, my weight felt really inevitable, and it became sort of my "place" - like, it defined how other people categorized me. I didn't have a horrible time with people teasing me about my weight, but I constantly FELT like people were judging me and mocking me behind my back. I felt as if I would never be popular, boys would never like me, and I would always be by myself. But my weight was also a handy cover and scapegoat - it kept me "safe", if you will, by keeping people at a distance, and at the same time, I could blame my weight for the fact that I had few friends, etc.

The surprising thing for me was when I lost a ton of weight due to my Crohn's. I found that not only was I so attached to the idea that "thin = good, beautiful, desirable, etc." that I didn't care that the cause / result of my weight loss was that I was terribly sick, but also that none of the things I thought were due to my extra weight went away. I was still an introvert, boys did not come flocking suddenly out of the woodwork to admire me, I was not instantly popular. It really forced me to face up to aspects of my personality that I hadn't really thought about before.

Now that my health is stabilized, I have gained a little bit of the weight back. I panicked initially, and jumped headlong into an exercise regimen in order to try to get skinnier. It didn't really work, which discouraged me, but also helped me gain some perspective. My whole focus now is taking care of my body and keeping myself healthy throughout my life. I honestly have gotten to the point where, hey, I like how I look, my boyfriend thinks I'm dead sexy, and as long as I'm healthy, what size I wear is pretty irrelevant.

I think I've gotten there, anyway. :-)