batskeets | drive-by

Wushu was good yesterday. My legs were totally busted-dead from the bike ride on Sunday, but I did pretty well in spite of that.

One of the wushu newbies has done Taiji before, so a few of us are getting together tonight to practice it! I'm sure my internal structure will be awful, but eh, only practice will make it better again.

I got a ton of stuff done last night, and dolla' bills will be headed my way soon. Woo!

Speaking of dolla' bills, I'm considering taking on a one-day-a-week paper route. I balked at the idea at first, but A) it's extra money, B) it's only one day a week, and C) I'd only have to make sure the papers were delivered by 6pm, so I wouldn't have to do it at some ungodly hour of the morning.

Oh, and yes,

polysciguy, I did turn in my ballot today. ;)

And now, a bit of boy blather, because I'm feeling pent-up and want to let it out:

I must confess that I've had the notion that I shouldn't feel the way I do about my current relationship. As though I need to hide it, or as though I'm stupid to entertain such thoughts. This isn't out of *wanting* to hide it, because I don't. Hell, there is part of me that'd like nothing better than to shout it from the rooftops.

I suppose it's more the feeling that nobody wants to hear it, or that I'm going to be judged a certain way if I express it. Perhaps it's that I think I'll be accused of falling into it without thinking, or letting things happen too fast. Granted, that may have been something I've done in the past, that doesn't mean that I'm doing it now. If anything, I may very well be *overthinking* this one. ^^;; I guess I'm overly concerned with the perceptions of others.

Thing is, in a few short months, he's brought me a lot of experiences that I'd forgotten were possible. He's helped me rediscover things that I'd lost touch with. We've changed each other's perspectives and we've learned from each other. We can be ourselves around each other, and we can say what we want to say to each other without fear.

Even if he disappeared from my life tomorrow, I would be better off than I was when he found me. And for that, and for many other reasons, I love him. Or at least, I do at this moment.

There, I said it. If it all goes to hell later on, you can point and laugh as you see fit, heh. ;p