minor brain dump

[batskeets]

I love the bagel shop across from my work. I had been crying before going in to get myself some breakfast, but apparently I didn't compose myself quite enough, because the girl behind the counter noticed. She asked me if I was okay. Of course, I said yes, because I wanted everyone to back off at the time, but she was still quite insistent on giving me a free cup of tea. It was such a genuinely nice thing for her to do that I nearly started crying again.

As for the crying part, well, you don't get to know why. Not yet, anyway. I'm not so much in the mood for discussing it, because I'm only loosely keeping my composure as it is, and I think my coworkers would be a little weirded out if I collapsed into a sobbing mess.

Actually, they would probably send me home and tell me to not worry about work, and to come back when I feel better, because they're sweeties. But nuts to that, because I need the hours. :p

Is it bad to keep something to yourself because you don't want other people to get involved? Because whomever you told about it would either A) get upset or B) try to reassure you when you don't want to be reassured? Because you suspect they'd try to help you, or bail you out, even though you really don't deserve to *be* bailed out? Because you did something idiotic a while ago, and you think that you should shoulder the resulting burden yourself, because you brought yourself to that point?

Well, don't worry about it--nobody's dying or losing an arm or anything. I mainly mention this in case anyone actually tries to interact with me today, because I probably won't be as receptive.

And, well, I couldn't rave about the incredibly nice bagel girl if I didn't put the situation in some context. I should really look for a tip jar the next time I'm in.

Comments

[aleisha.livejournal.com]

It's great when people do things out of kindness.

[a-wags.livejournal.com]

Is it bad to keep something to yourself because you don't want other people to get involved? Because whomever you told about it would either A) get upset or B) try to reassure you when you don't want to be reassured? Because you suspect they'd try to help you, or bail you out, even though you really don't deserve to *be* bailed out? Because you did something idiotic a while ago, and you think that you should shoulder the resulting burden yourself, because you brought yourself to that point?


Im in this exact point today, I feel like all this crap I'm dealing with is a result of my own manisfestations but yet I am a wreck about it all, if I could go just 1-2 days without crying randomly that would be great

[aniline.livejournal.com]

Aw, that was nice of the bagel girl. I love it when stuff like that happens. I hope whatever is causing the weepiness can get better. :/

[dakania.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

...i don't have much more comment than that. it hurts too much.

[sarapada.livejournal.com]

I'd say keeping it to yourself is fine if you just want to deal with it on your own terms, etc., etc. That said, if you want to tell other people, and think it would help make you feel better, but are refraining because you are afraid of upsetting people, or making them feel obligated to help you... I offer this piece of advice. You can't control someone else's feelings or reactions. They will react the way they choose to, and you have no control over that, so you shouldn't shoulder the burden of responsibility for that. I've also found, through extensive personal experience, that despite all of my efforts to protect people from my hurricanes of angst, etc., generally the people who really love me want to know what's up, because they don't like to see me upset, and want to contribute to me feeling better if they can.

Just my two cents; take it with a grain of salt. Do what you need to do to take care of yourself, and the rest will take care of itself.

[storm_dancer]

Whatever's going on, there are hugs here for you.

[ghost-girl.livejournal.com]

aww *hug* I'm sorry you're all weepy. That's no fun. I had a girl at a juice place give me a free orange juice once because I was weepy. I love niceness! :)

[randvek.livejournal.com]

Is it bad to keep something to yourself because you don't want other people to get involved?

I hope not. I'm pretty bad about it myself. In fact, I keep things I'm going to be doing to myself a lot of time in case I screw it up and don't want people getting involved in my screw up. It's like being proactive about being private.

[junsiew.livejournal.com]

i don't think it's a bad thing to keep something like that to yourself. it just means you are strong enough to deal with whatever is bugging you, and want time to think about it before involving other people.

kudos to the bagel girl!

[nidaba.livejournal.com]

*Hug*

[tracylynnquan.livejournal.com]

Take care, sweet Skeets!

[starkodama.livejournal.com]

Aw, that was nice of the bagel girl. :) I'm sorry you were crying though!

crappy stuff

[gmendel.livejournal.com]

Not telling *anybody* about it may not healthy. Keeping stuff internalized can make it worse. If you'd like to talk to a neutral party, consider the White Bird crisis line: (541) 687-4000. 24 hrs/day.

They won't judge you. They won't try to help you. They won't try to bail you out. They'll probably listen and recognize that this thing you're dealing with is a serious issue.

They MAY help you work out a plan to deal with the situation, but that part isn't really mandatory.

[shannidee.livejournal.com]

My poor Skeeter *hugs*. As always. Impartial ear just waiting to be chewed. Any time.

[arabella-jin.livejournal.com]

*HUGS* Don't worry baby! Maybe if you look at it from another perspective it won't be something un-fixable?