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minor brain dump
Jan. 6th, 2005 11:18 amI love the bagel shop across from my work. I had been crying before going in to get myself some breakfast, but apparently I didn't compose myself quite enough, because the girl behind the counter noticed. She asked me if I was okay. Of course, I said yes, because I wanted everyone to back off at the time, but she was still quite insistent on giving me a free cup of tea. It was such a genuinely nice thing for her to do that I nearly started crying again.
As for the crying part, well, you don't get to know why. Not yet, anyway. I'm not so much in the mood for discussing it, because I'm only loosely keeping my composure as it is, and I think my coworkers would be a little weirded out if I collapsed into a sobbing mess.
Actually, they would probably send me home and tell me to not worry about work, and to come back when I feel better, because they're sweeties. But nuts to that, because I need the hours. :p
Is it bad to keep something to yourself because you don't want other people to get involved? Because whomever you told about it would either A) get upset or B) try to reassure you when you don't want to be reassured? Because you suspect they'd try to help you, or bail you out, even though you really don't deserve to *be* bailed out? Because you did something idiotic a while ago, and you think that you should shoulder the resulting burden yourself, because you brought yourself to that point?
Well, don't worry about it--nobody's dying or losing an arm or anything. I mainly mention this in case anyone actually tries to interact with me today, because I probably won't be as receptive.
And, well, I couldn't rave about the incredibly nice bagel girl if I didn't put the situation in some context. I should really look for a tip jar the next time I'm in.
As for the crying part, well, you don't get to know why. Not yet, anyway. I'm not so much in the mood for discussing it, because I'm only loosely keeping my composure as it is, and I think my coworkers would be a little weirded out if I collapsed into a sobbing mess.
Actually, they would probably send me home and tell me to not worry about work, and to come back when I feel better, because they're sweeties. But nuts to that, because I need the hours. :p
Is it bad to keep something to yourself because you don't want other people to get involved? Because whomever you told about it would either A) get upset or B) try to reassure you when you don't want to be reassured? Because you suspect they'd try to help you, or bail you out, even though you really don't deserve to *be* bailed out? Because you did something idiotic a while ago, and you think that you should shoulder the resulting burden yourself, because you brought yourself to that point?
Well, don't worry about it--nobody's dying or losing an arm or anything. I mainly mention this in case anyone actually tries to interact with me today, because I probably won't be as receptive.
And, well, I couldn't rave about the incredibly nice bagel girl if I didn't put the situation in some context. I should really look for a tip jar the next time I'm in.
