What's Ahead
Apr. 23rd, 2010 11:31 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
batskeetsI can't help thinking about the future, because I've got this silly birthday coming up. The unusually frequent out-of-town trips will soon be coming to an end for the next good while, and the looming specter of the Berkeley Tournament will be out of my face next week. I can't WAIT to really relax into the groove, and get things rolling in a way that doesn't require Herculean amounts of effort.
General Mood: Still staying on the up-and-up. My default set point when I get up in the morning seems to be in the land of Mostly-Contented. Nothing is really Wrong right now, and that's almost strange, in a way. But it's good.
Stress/Anxiety: I've had a lot of it, and it's largely of my own doing. Dating-related anxiety, difficulty sleeping, overloading myself with too many things to do and not enough time to do them... bleh. Some of it is me fretting over things that don't need to be fretted over, and I'm finally calming that down to where I can get better sleep. I'm also giving myself leeway on some of the things I've overtasked myself with, so I could be a LOT worse off than I am right now. I'm more aware of my limits than I was one year ago.
The Job: So it goes, so it goes. I suppose the best I can wish for right now is stability, and I certainly seem to have that. I've already raised the topic of working from home more often with Bossman, and he was fine with it, so that's happy-making. Hours-reduction is probably further down the line, but this is a start.
The Business: It's business. Studio search has been sporadic and not exactly fruitful, but I'm not in a big hurry to get it settled just now. I'm willing to wait for the right space to come along, and I'll have more energy to put into it in May and onward. My head hasn't been in the game as much this past month or two, but I am thinking about the future a lot, letting ideas germinate, and slowly detangling and working out logistics when I can spare the brainpower.
Money: Thanks to separating finances at the end of December, my own food-budgeting efforts in recent months, and getting the last of the remodeling-related stuff paid off, I suddenly have more money than I'm used to having. I am vaguely paranoid that something will happen to take it from me, so I'm being a good monkey and putting a lot in savings. Which is VERY Good. Mom would be proud.
Love Life: So far, it seems to be an ongoing string of First Dates, which is, um, not exactly what I'd hoped for. There has only been one date, *maybe* two, that inspired me enough to really want to go on a Second Date, but thus far, the stars haven't aligned in a way that would allow said Second Date to actually happen. Sigh. I haven't given up yet, though. I don't really need to be in a big hurry, and I suppose I should learn patience at some point in my life... so why not now?
Wushu and Fitness: Feh. Not entirely happy with how this has gone, because the anxiety and sleeplessness as of late seem to have dulled a lot of the gains I made in late-March/early-April. But, it *has* become a good exercise in learning to Let Go and stop caring. I won't really know until I hit the carpet at Berkeley, because that's always when the emotional flood starts to pour in, but I certainly *hope* I've overcome it enough to not psych myself out.
Goals and Flights of Fancy: There are all kinds of random things I want to do, hopefully this year. Business is still an ongoing goal. Getting lean like I did last summer is also on the list. Japan is a flight of fancy, but a seemingly feasible one. Might try a 10K, if running starts being kinder to me. Also want to camp, bike, and hike more. I may also return to the stage, if the right opportunity presents itself. Not sure if that'd be in the acting or music realm, yet. Oh, and ROLLER DERBY.
General Mood: Still staying on the up-and-up. My default set point when I get up in the morning seems to be in the land of Mostly-Contented. Nothing is really Wrong right now, and that's almost strange, in a way. But it's good.
Stress/Anxiety: I've had a lot of it, and it's largely of my own doing. Dating-related anxiety, difficulty sleeping, overloading myself with too many things to do and not enough time to do them... bleh. Some of it is me fretting over things that don't need to be fretted over, and I'm finally calming that down to where I can get better sleep. I'm also giving myself leeway on some of the things I've overtasked myself with, so I could be a LOT worse off than I am right now. I'm more aware of my limits than I was one year ago.
The Job: So it goes, so it goes. I suppose the best I can wish for right now is stability, and I certainly seem to have that. I've already raised the topic of working from home more often with Bossman, and he was fine with it, so that's happy-making. Hours-reduction is probably further down the line, but this is a start.
The Business: It's business. Studio search has been sporadic and not exactly fruitful, but I'm not in a big hurry to get it settled just now. I'm willing to wait for the right space to come along, and I'll have more energy to put into it in May and onward. My head hasn't been in the game as much this past month or two, but I am thinking about the future a lot, letting ideas germinate, and slowly detangling and working out logistics when I can spare the brainpower.
Money: Thanks to separating finances at the end of December, my own food-budgeting efforts in recent months, and getting the last of the remodeling-related stuff paid off, I suddenly have more money than I'm used to having. I am vaguely paranoid that something will happen to take it from me, so I'm being a good monkey and putting a lot in savings. Which is VERY Good. Mom would be proud.
Love Life: So far, it seems to be an ongoing string of First Dates, which is, um, not exactly what I'd hoped for. There has only been one date, *maybe* two, that inspired me enough to really want to go on a Second Date, but thus far, the stars haven't aligned in a way that would allow said Second Date to actually happen. Sigh. I haven't given up yet, though. I don't really need to be in a big hurry, and I suppose I should learn patience at some point in my life... so why not now?
Wushu and Fitness: Feh. Not entirely happy with how this has gone, because the anxiety and sleeplessness as of late seem to have dulled a lot of the gains I made in late-March/early-April. But, it *has* become a good exercise in learning to Let Go and stop caring. I won't really know until I hit the carpet at Berkeley, because that's always when the emotional flood starts to pour in, but I certainly *hope* I've overcome it enough to not psych myself out.
Goals and Flights of Fancy: There are all kinds of random things I want to do, hopefully this year. Business is still an ongoing goal. Getting lean like I did last summer is also on the list. Japan is a flight of fancy, but a seemingly feasible one. Might try a 10K, if running starts being kinder to me. Also want to camp, bike, and hike more. I may also return to the stage, if the right opportunity presents itself. Not sure if that'd be in the acting or music realm, yet. Oh, and ROLLER DERBY.
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Date: 2010-04-23 06:40 pm (UTC)I really hope to make it over there and see you tomorrow! If not I hope you have an amazing party girl!!
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