"Because when you learn, you'll know what makes the world turn."

[batskeets]

Wushu GOOD. I was 20 minutes late (grrrr) but it was so freaking good to be back. Most people were rusty as hell from not training during winter break, but other than feeling a bit more winded from all the junk that flu left in my lungs, I felt pretty excellent. I think I may have strained a muscle a bit, but it doesn't seem to be too bad. Still, I'm going to be sore as all hell tomorrow, I'm sure.

Yesterday was Gizmo's birthday! We threw a little steak on the grill--birthday cake for dogs, heh--and gave it to him to eat. I'm just glad his mouth is feeling good enough after the tooth extraction that he could actually eat it. :)

Tonight is lazy Tuesday. Well, not *that* lazy, I guess--I've got random little errands and tasks that need doing tonight--but it should be good otherwise.

It seems like everybody's got the blahs, lately. It's good to know that it's not just me, but it sucks, too.

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Ever look back on an experience, and feel like you were somehow outside of yourself the entire time? I periodically think back on things that I've done, places I've been--all generally happy things like parties or time with friends, mind you--and it almost feels unreal. Did those things even happen? I know I was there, and other people saw me there, but... I wasn't fully plugged into myself, perhaps? It's hard to explain.

I sometimes wonder if, in the effort to subvert my more stoic and shy traits when I'm around others, I'm inadvertently stifling other large chunks of my personality, too. You're only really yourself when you're by yourself, you know?

I think at times that I should just stop worrying, and embrace the darker, crabbier, snarkier side of my personality--you know, the side that doesn't really like most people. Ultimately, that wouldn't work, because other people's feelings matter too much to me, and I can't be funny/snarky/whatever, if it's going to actually hurt someone's feelings.

Okay, I'm done now. ;p

Comments

[tokori.livejournal.com]

Im going to consider going to the gym tonight, but im afraid it will be packed

[skeets.livejournal.com]

Heh, isn't it always? ;ppp I think if you go in after 8:00p, though, you can usually find *some* nice corner of the Rec where you can do your thing in relative solitude.

[tokori.livejournal.com]

its esp bad after breaks.. then it tends to die down :)

[bad-juice.livejournal.com]

Ever look back on an experience, and feel like you were somehow outside of yourself the entire time? I periodically think back on things that I've done, places I've been--all generally happy things like parties or time with friends, mind you--and it almost feels unreal. Did those things even happen?

Almost 100% of my memories are like that.

[xplo-eristotle.livejournal.com]

My dates were always like that. I'd get home and then feel like I never went out. I think it has something to do with shyness and not being yourself. Or maybe it's doing something out of the ordinary. Or maybe it's because I wanted things to go differently than they did... O.o

[aleisha.livejournal.com]

Maybe you should try telling people in advance that you have a snarky date planned for (pick a day). That way they'll know and won't take it personally.