UGH

[batskeets]

I'm so utterly, utterly annoyed.

Certain segments of my family are really starting to piss me off with their completely unsolicited commentary on my post-grad situation. Yeah, it's not great--I could have told you that. It's not even good, sometimes.

BUT, just because I haven't done every last thing they've suggested doesn't mean that I'm not doing *anything*. I AM NOT SITTING ON MY ASS ALL DAY EATING CHEEZ DOODLES. I could be spending time with my loved ones right this second, but instead I am sitting here working. Even when I *am* sitting and watching TV, half the time I still have a keyboard in my lap, and I miss half the plot of whatever show is on, because I'm trying to hammer out a piece of code.

Things don't happen overnight. Clients don't stop asking you to honor their deadlines just because you want them to. Life doesn't stop when you ask it do. I can't do everything rightnowthisverysecondOMFG.

I'm sure my mother is emotionally gutting herself daily because I'm not making The Big Bucks, and my aunt thinks I'm some kind of trailer-trash-in-training because I'm not making The Big Bucks (as if she liked me all that much to begin with ::eyeroll::), and yes, I realize that I'm probably blowing up any emotions of theirs to hyperbolic proportions. I'm still in the heat of annoyance, so bite me. ;p

But you know? I don't need that kind of negative garbage in my life. I don't so much care if I make a lot of money right away. I certainly don't care about timeshares and fancy-ass cars and overbearing symbols of status. I am unwilling to tolerate an lifelong stream of workplace misery doing something I hate and that makes me hate myself, for financial gain.

Maybe they don't mean to come off sounding this way, but that's the way it sounds when it goes from their mouths to my ears. Maybe I'm just becoming more sensitive to the things they say as of late, even though some of them have been saying these kinds of things for years, just on other areas of my life. Or, maybe I'm just less willing to sit back and quietly tolerate it all the time.

Sometimes, I think the only reason I have left to try is the hope that somebody, anybody, will just SHUT UP.

Okay, I'm better now. Sort of. Maybe.

Cripes, and now I've lost a good half hour of work time because I had to get this rant down in print. THANKS SO MUCH. :p

Comments

[arabella-jin.livejournal.com]

hun, do what you want because you WILL never make them happy. They may want you a particular way but once you achieve that they will raise the bar..Vicious circle. I s'pose every parent wants their child to do well in life and blah...and they think that material achievement is good to provide you with financial trapping that by the end of the day, you might not even want to have. There is nothing you can do except to ignore their comments...Unless you want to do what they want and become a miserable sod for the rest of your life doing something you don't want to do. Trust me, I agree on a lot of things and now pay the price. I wish I knew back then.