"They were waiting to be, but they forgot. Now they see sky, and they remember what they are."

[batskeets]

I think I'm having one of those odd, unexpected moments of clarity.

It's one of those moments where everything that once confused the living daylights out of me has all clicked into place, and it is all making sense. Well, okay, not *everything*, I suppose, but there are a few things that seem to be making more sense, for some reason.

I'm also feeling a lot of remorse. I've had a lingering sense of it all weekend, and talking with skamp last night helped me nail down a big part of it--there are too many people that I have neglected in recent months, or even years. And, in each and every case, it seems like it all comes down to fear. Fear of a rejection, fear of a reaction, fear of finding out that you've been left behind, fear of learning that you care far more than they ever will.

I also realize that there are too many things that I've put off. Time is slipping out from under all of us, and too many things are taken for granted. Things that we expect to be there tomorrow might not actually be there tomorrow.

Perhaps it's time for me to take action. It's been too long.

Comments

[addwag.livejournal.com]

Time is slipping out from under all of us, and too many things are taken for granted. Things that we expect to be there tomorrow might not actually be there tomorrow.


wow. that hit me. its so true....

[lostsatellite.livejournal.com]

everything you wrote about remorse resonated strongly with me...

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[designer-fetus.livejournal.com]

don't worry, skeeter! i won't reject you!!!!!!
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