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Life hasn't killed me yet.
Oct. 26th, 2012 12:16 pmHey, guys! I'm not dead! Did catch a nasty round of the Plague, but then again, pretty much everyone I know did, so it was only a matter of time. I feel like I've been trying to write a post for ages, but nothing seems to come out. Ooof. I have to admit to feeling overwhelmed, and that certainly makes it hard to focus on any one thing long enough to post about it.
WORK. Things are going pretty okay. I recently started freelancing for a marketing firm, and they're pretty thrilled with me so far, so I'm feeling a lot better about having more regular work coming in from them. I'm still in a place where I feel like there's not enough of me to go around, so I haven't been seeking out new work as aggressively as I'd like, but I'm getting enough work to not starve, so that's good. I need a longer-term plan, though, and I have a couple of thoughts bouncing around in my head about potentially expanding the company.
There's another part of my brain that wonders if I should just freelance, and not have to worry so much about marketing my company. I'm also considering the occasional part-time job, but I'm being picky about those for as long as I can afford to be. I have, at times, even thought about what kind of full-time job I'd want to get, if I went back to that world. The nice thing is, even if I didn't keep my company forever, I've spent a solid year building a portfolio that I feel much prouder of. It's a portfolio that could actually get me a job I'd like, rather than another boring, soul-sucking "web development" gig, so this definitely hasn't been wasted time.
The studio lease is coming up in in December, too, which is daunting. I have some reasons to move to another space (not being in the basement, getting trapped by stupid-long freight trains), and others reasons to stay (moving would be a pain, liking the neighborhood). I haven't been looking very hard for a new space yet, but the idea of signing a 2-year lease at this place makes me a little teeth-grindy.
RELATIONSHIPPING. Speaking of home, the "let's get a place together!" conversation has happened, so that's another looming thing to plan for. Not looming because I'm nervous--I'm actually looking forward to J and I being in the same space, and think it'll be totally agreeable--but because looking for a place to live is never, ever fun.
I wish the studio lease and J's apartment lease were coming up in the reverse order, because I also want a workspace that's reasonably close to my home and the Hangar, but it's hard to choose that when I'm not sure where home is going to be. J and I haven't really figured out any details beyond expressing the desire to not live on complete opposite ends of town from each other, so things are very up-in-the-air, which is anxiety-inducing.
Other than that, I can't really complain about the state of things. We're good at talking openly and honestly about things. He remains thoughtful and generally adorable. I've grown in some positive and occasionally unexpected ways because he's made it easy and non-intimidating to do so. I continue to appreciate the fact that we act like grown-ups, and don't engage each other with the melodramatic, passive-aggressive garbage that eats away at so many interpersonal relationships.
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Anyhoo, yeah. Things are going along. My only complaint is that I'd like to be less tired and overwhelmed.
WORK. Things are going pretty okay. I recently started freelancing for a marketing firm, and they're pretty thrilled with me so far, so I'm feeling a lot better about having more regular work coming in from them. I'm still in a place where I feel like there's not enough of me to go around, so I haven't been seeking out new work as aggressively as I'd like, but I'm getting enough work to not starve, so that's good. I need a longer-term plan, though, and I have a couple of thoughts bouncing around in my head about potentially expanding the company.
There's another part of my brain that wonders if I should just freelance, and not have to worry so much about marketing my company. I'm also considering the occasional part-time job, but I'm being picky about those for as long as I can afford to be. I have, at times, even thought about what kind of full-time job I'd want to get, if I went back to that world. The nice thing is, even if I didn't keep my company forever, I've spent a solid year building a portfolio that I feel much prouder of. It's a portfolio that could actually get me a job I'd like, rather than another boring, soul-sucking "web development" gig, so this definitely hasn't been wasted time.
The studio lease is coming up in in December, too, which is daunting. I have some reasons to move to another space (not being in the basement, getting trapped by stupid-long freight trains), and others reasons to stay (moving would be a pain, liking the neighborhood). I haven't been looking very hard for a new space yet, but the idea of signing a 2-year lease at this place makes me a little teeth-grindy.
RELATIONSHIPPING. Speaking of home, the "let's get a place together!" conversation has happened, so that's another looming thing to plan for. Not looming because I'm nervous--I'm actually looking forward to J and I being in the same space, and think it'll be totally agreeable--but because looking for a place to live is never, ever fun.
I wish the studio lease and J's apartment lease were coming up in the reverse order, because I also want a workspace that's reasonably close to my home and the Hangar, but it's hard to choose that when I'm not sure where home is going to be. J and I haven't really figured out any details beyond expressing the desire to not live on complete opposite ends of town from each other, so things are very up-in-the-air, which is anxiety-inducing.
Other than that, I can't really complain about the state of things. We're good at talking openly and honestly about things. He remains thoughtful and generally adorable. I've grown in some positive and occasionally unexpected ways because he's made it easy and non-intimidating to do so. I continue to appreciate the fact that we act like grown-ups, and don't engage each other with the melodramatic, passive-aggressive garbage that eats away at so many interpersonal relationships.
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Anyhoo, yeah. Things are going along. My only complaint is that I'd like to be less tired and overwhelmed.
