Fed up x 10000 yen

I don't think I want to talk to anybody right now, unless they have money, food, or a job offer in hand.

I'm thinking that the world would be a FAR better place if there were fewer people in it. Maybe we could just get rid of all of them. I could just roam the planet all alone and pick berries and such.

I'm sure you're thinking: of *course* I'm not serious, because I wouldn't have any of the luxuries I have now, and I wouldn't have human companionship.

But you know, at least then I wouldn't have to have to watch bad people being blind, stupid, and/or gutless assholes, and being REWARDED for it. And I wouldn't have to watch good people getting shit on repeatedly for trying to do the right thing.

That almost seems like it'd be worth it.

:p

I woke up today with that nice big storm cloud still lingering over my head. I spent much of the afternoon in a totally crap mood, so I laid down and took a nap for a couple hours, and now I'm feeling a bit better. I had a good dinner and some nice TV to watch, so it was okay. I'm still feeling kind of gloomy, but not so angry.

I sent out some job applications today, and now I'm at the job covering someone else's shift, filling out even *more* job applications. alleycatsphinx invited me out to 80's Night, but obviously I can't do that when I'm working, so I'm pretty bummed out about missing it. :( I suppose it's better from a practical standpoint that I'm making money instead of spending it, but I think my spirits could have really used a night of dancing tonight. Maybe next week?

There are times when I hate Eugene so much that I don't even want to look at it. Some parts of it are so run-down, and there are no jobs, and no real scene for anyone under 21, nothing open after 10 or 11pm except Taco Bell, Shari's, and IHOP, and it also basically dies out every summer when all the students leave for the break. It's a really sucky town for a young, unmarried, childless person, when you think about it. I'm not even sure that it's good for a family person either.

Today was one of those days when this hateful feeling towards Eugene really struck me. I'm sure that all this negativity is largely because I was feeling downtrodden today. But then, I don't recall *ever* sitting here thinking "gee, I love Eugene." Most of the enjoyment I get from this place can be attributed to the people who are in it. Well, whatever I'm thinking about this place on a given day, I always keep it to myself. I suppose it all balances out in the long run.

Anyhoo, I should be getting back to these job applications.