Not-so-motivated
Oct. 30th, 2007 11:58 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
batskeetsThe cross-bar retainer that I've had pasted behind my lower-front teeth since I was 12 finally fell off. I bit into a not-quite-ripe piece of fruit (well, the core of the fruit, actually), and that jerked it loose. Oops?
I suppose that means I actually have to find a dentist up here. I've been putting off the whole finding a new doctor/gyno/dentist thing, seeing as I feel fine and I'm too busy to really look, buuuuut maybe I shouldn't anymore. Heh.
Anyhoo, I'm trying hard to spin up my motivation, and it seems to be working in most arenas of my life. Well, today, anyway. ;p
These past two weekends have pretty much confirmed, however, that I am going to get schoooooooled at the tournament. XD I can live with that, because it was a quick decision that left me with no time to really train up for it, and it's mainly an exercise in mental preparation. (i.e. not making myself do worse by getting scared and psyching myself out)
Buuuut, yeah. Kinda gonna get my ass kicked. ;p
I think my events will be Nanquan and/or Broadsword, because I don't have time to finish a new long fist set. I might get a gimme medal because Chicks Don't Do Nanquan (heh), but seriously? I'd be doing modified compulsories, at best, because that's all I have time for. Effin' nandu. The magical Wushu Hops Fairy needs to pay me a visit. :p
David said the other day that he's losing motivation training at our current school, and I have to say I'm feeling the same way. It's really nice to have a teacher, and I'm excited to learn new things, but I am definitely not able to practice the things that I want to be practicing and perfecting there. I'm not even really getting to practice styles that I'm *good* at.
I seem to be more predisposed to nanquan, but have I been taught anything new in that arena? Have I gotten refinements or corrections to what I already know? Nope. I'm just learning weapons... weapons that I probably won't even have any use for in a competition setting, because they don't play to my strengths. And I don't exactly *have* a lot of strengths compared to advanced wushu players, so while it's fun, it's not exactly the most productive use of my wushu time.
When it comes to what I want to do, I'm still having to be my own coach, and it pretty much sucks balls. I don't know if I can really get any better by myself.
Gotta keep on keepin' on, I guess...
I suppose that means I actually have to find a dentist up here. I've been putting off the whole finding a new doctor/gyno/dentist thing, seeing as I feel fine and I'm too busy to really look, buuuuut maybe I shouldn't anymore. Heh.
Anyhoo, I'm trying hard to spin up my motivation, and it seems to be working in most arenas of my life. Well, today, anyway. ;p
These past two weekends have pretty much confirmed, however, that I am going to get schoooooooled at the tournament. XD I can live with that, because it was a quick decision that left me with no time to really train up for it, and it's mainly an exercise in mental preparation. (i.e. not making myself do worse by getting scared and psyching myself out)
Buuuut, yeah. Kinda gonna get my ass kicked. ;p
I think my events will be Nanquan and/or Broadsword, because I don't have time to finish a new long fist set. I might get a gimme medal because Chicks Don't Do Nanquan (heh), but seriously? I'd be doing modified compulsories, at best, because that's all I have time for. Effin' nandu. The magical Wushu Hops Fairy needs to pay me a visit. :p
David said the other day that he's losing motivation training at our current school, and I have to say I'm feeling the same way. It's really nice to have a teacher, and I'm excited to learn new things, but I am definitely not able to practice the things that I want to be practicing and perfecting there. I'm not even really getting to practice styles that I'm *good* at.
I seem to be more predisposed to nanquan, but have I been taught anything new in that arena? Have I gotten refinements or corrections to what I already know? Nope. I'm just learning weapons... weapons that I probably won't even have any use for in a competition setting, because they don't play to my strengths. And I don't exactly *have* a lot of strengths compared to advanced wushu players, so while it's fun, it's not exactly the most productive use of my wushu time.
When it comes to what I want to do, I'm still having to be my own coach, and it pretty much sucks balls. I don't know if I can really get any better by myself.
Gotta keep on keepin' on, I guess...
