Everyone's a critic
Aug. 18th, 2005 04:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
batskeetsIt occurs to me that, with the sleep deprivation and all, I've been feeling rather unusual, this week.
Some might call it snarky. Or bitchy, perhaps. Punchy, maybe. I suspect![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
polysciguy would describe it as, "feisty." Whether or not a term for it actually exists, the point is that I am dropping comments more flippantly than usual.
The cool thing is, it seems to get a laugh out of people. I like to think that I can be pretty funny, when I find my moment. Of course, with my state of being over the past few days, I'm not quite sure if they're chuckling because it's funny, or if they're chuckling in an, "wow, it's weird to hear something like that fall out of *your* mouth," sort of way. But eh, I'm a doofus, so I'll take whatever's offered.
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Do you ever hear about something that was said about you, that just gets on your nerves? The kind of thing that's just an off-the-cuff judgment call, which was made in spite of the fact that the person's actual knowledge of you is pretty much zero? Those are the worst.
Why is that The Worst? Because, even though you know logically that they're making flip judgments based on nothing, and that you shouldn't take it seriously, you still *do*, because you hate being misjudged or misidentified more than just about anything.
Or, hey, maybe it's just me, because I spent too much of my time dwelling on others' opinions of me, while I was growing up. And even now, when I have made large leaps towards the, "take me or leave me, because I don't really have time to care," side of things, old habits are still tough to break.
Yes, your formative years can, in fact, mess you up well into adulthood. So, be nice to your kids, already. They'll have enough internal crap to deal with as they grow up, trust me.
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I think that, when I'm tired, I start to really fear and/or hate people who are really outgoing.
The Fear comes into play when it's a person who's outgoing in a nice, non-irritating way. Because then, I start thinking that they'll assume I'm being unresponsive because I haaaaaate them. When really, it's because I'm Really. Effing. Tired. And for some of us, feigning an outgoing personality actually takes at least some small shred of energy.
The Hate comes into play when it's an annoyingly outgoing person. I don't really care as much if they think I don't like them, but they are usually the type who will just keep talking at me, completely oblivious to the fact that I am Really. Effing. Tired, and I just want them to go away so I can get back to whatever I was doing. And then, I start hating them for being oblivious and intrusive, and that doesn't exactly help with the Tired.
This is why Real Friends are a good thing. Because, once you get to that point with a friend, they'll know why you're only responding to them with the occasional grunt. And you know they won't hold it against you, because they know better. :)
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I'm rather grumpy, because people are talking about running Zul'Farrak this evening, which I want to do. But, today is a Taiji Day, and I want to do *that*, too. Taiji wins, though, because I'll just be playing WoW for half the weekend anyway. And, I hear that they might be doing broadsword form (!!) at class tonight. W00t!
I promise that I'll stop being whiny and cranky in a couple of days.
Well, maybe not promise. But, I'll try. ;p
Some might call it snarky. Or bitchy, perhaps. Punchy, maybe. I suspect
polysciguy would describe it as, "feisty." Whether or not a term for it actually exists, the point is that I am dropping comments more flippantly than usual.The cool thing is, it seems to get a laugh out of people. I like to think that I can be pretty funny, when I find my moment. Of course, with my state of being over the past few days, I'm not quite sure if they're chuckling because it's funny, or if they're chuckling in an, "wow, it's weird to hear something like that fall out of *your* mouth," sort of way. But eh, I'm a doofus, so I'll take whatever's offered.
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Do you ever hear about something that was said about you, that just gets on your nerves? The kind of thing that's just an off-the-cuff judgment call, which was made in spite of the fact that the person's actual knowledge of you is pretty much zero? Those are the worst.
Why is that The Worst? Because, even though you know logically that they're making flip judgments based on nothing, and that you shouldn't take it seriously, you still *do*, because you hate being misjudged or misidentified more than just about anything.
Or, hey, maybe it's just me, because I spent too much of my time dwelling on others' opinions of me, while I was growing up. And even now, when I have made large leaps towards the, "take me or leave me, because I don't really have time to care," side of things, old habits are still tough to break.
Yes, your formative years can, in fact, mess you up well into adulthood. So, be nice to your kids, already. They'll have enough internal crap to deal with as they grow up, trust me.
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I think that, when I'm tired, I start to really fear and/or hate people who are really outgoing.
The Fear comes into play when it's a person who's outgoing in a nice, non-irritating way. Because then, I start thinking that they'll assume I'm being unresponsive because I haaaaaate them. When really, it's because I'm Really. Effing. Tired. And for some of us, feigning an outgoing personality actually takes at least some small shred of energy.
The Hate comes into play when it's an annoyingly outgoing person. I don't really care as much if they think I don't like them, but they are usually the type who will just keep talking at me, completely oblivious to the fact that I am Really. Effing. Tired, and I just want them to go away so I can get back to whatever I was doing. And then, I start hating them for being oblivious and intrusive, and that doesn't exactly help with the Tired.
This is why Real Friends are a good thing. Because, once you get to that point with a friend, they'll know why you're only responding to them with the occasional grunt. And you know they won't hold it against you, because they know better. :)
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I'm rather grumpy, because people are talking about running Zul'Farrak this evening, which I want to do. But, today is a Taiji Day, and I want to do *that*, too. Taiji wins, though, because I'll just be playing WoW for half the weekend anyway. And, I hear that they might be doing broadsword form (!!) at class tonight. W00t!
I promise that I'll stop being whiny and cranky in a couple of days.
Well, maybe not promise. But, I'll try. ;p
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Date: 2005-08-19 01:56 am (UTC)I thought about making an effort to comment on everything my "friends" wrote but for the reason you stated I decided against it. I don't need to cheer everyone up and would imagine it to get fucking annoying if someone tried to do that with me all the time. I hate people is what I guess I am trying to say. I thought maybe I could change that by changing the scenary but no. I still hate people.
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Date: 2005-08-19 05:56 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-08-19 03:27 pm (UTC)AUGH, that happened to me this week. It ruined my whole day, until finally, I confronted the guy who said something to me, and it turns out he was just joking. ahhahaha, so funny, dude.
Basically he made a joke that I'd get more work done if I didn't leave at 7 everyday. For the last 4 weeks or so I've been working 12-14 hour days, and 8 hour days on weekends to make sure my stuff is done, and done well. His stuff is horribly broken and not good and he leaves at 7-8 everyday. I haven't left before 10 or 12 for 4 weeks. So that REALLY worked my last nerve. But it turned out he was joking. yeeeaaahhh. :P